TWINS!!!

Is there a saying that two is better than one?
Holy cow! I'm pregnant with twins. I'm just absolutely amazed and very much in shock. I had my first ultrasound today. We saw and heard heart beats and they measure right at 6 weeks. So far so good.
We have a long way to go and I'm still scared but wow I'm pregnant with twins right now!

Third beta hcg test

I had my third beta hcg today - it was 11,901 - this is 20 days post transfer. My hcg was 518 on 4/15 (11 days after transfer) and then 1194 (13 days after transfer) on 4/17.
I'll have my first ultrasound on Monday.

Suggestions?

I'm hoping you all have some great suggestions (especially those who have been pregnant after a loss) for how to best get through each day/each week - waiting and hoping you stay pregnant and everything is okay - and not worrying a lot.
I'm doing okay but I'd like to do some very deliberate things to help pass the time in the most positive way possible. I could always stay busy (but I can tend to be too busy) and I want to exercise (I know it will help) but I'm kind of scared (even of moderate walking).
I would greatly appreciate your help!

Beta hcg level looks good

I had a repeat hcg blood test done on Friday and it went from 518 to 1194 in two days. Good news. Next hcg will be next Friday.

I'm posting this picture of my positive home pregnancy test. I had to take a picture that morning because I didn't believe what I was looking at. I'm so proud. It's an incredible privilege and thrill to see a + test! By the way, I'm keeping the pee stick.

Still pregnant!

Yippee!

PREGNANT!!!!!!

I'm pregnant! I'm completely shocked. It's amazing, a miracle. I found out this afternoon. My hcg level is 518.
Even though it's early, I'm going to embrace it, celebrate every moment I have it and assume I'll have a successful pregnancy this time.
I'll post the details soon.
Tara - thanks for the book recommendation (I've already got it and been reading it - what irony!)

Moving on

I'm assuming I'm not pregnant and moving on with figuring out my life without kids.
Sometimes I feel like curling up in a ball and staying that way and sometimes I can see a glimmer of hope for a new future. I know I will be okay - the key is figuring out how to get there.

I really appreciate everyone's support - you have been great - thank you from the bottom of my heart!

Crazy - you're not going to believe this

This has been the craziest 24+ hours. On Friday we had no normal embryos, on Saturday we went in at the last minute for a transfer (which is probably a slim chance).

My doctor called me Friday afternoon to say that none of my 9 embryos were normal, that's it, the end, done. I was in shock. What a kick in the gut. Then I went home to figure out how to figure out the rest of my life.
This morning about 9:30, my phone rang and it was my doc's office. I wasn't going to answer, I thought they were calling me by mistake. Long story short, the embryologist explained (twice, once for me then again on speakerphone with Justin) that two embryos' abnormality was a monosomy (had only 1 chromosome instead of 2) but were growing nicely (looked good) and 1) the test could be wrong, and 2) it was possible that only 1 cell was not normal - the others could be normal.
So, we hurried to get ready, picked up my friend, Julie, (whose job it was to keep Justin from killing the doctor et al) and hurried to Atlanta.
We transferred 2 embryos and now we wait. I still might have a heart attack. It's hard to know whether to be hopeful or pragmatic. But I'm thankful for the chance . . .

Proceeding with PGD

They called today and things look good enough to proceed with the genetic testing, beginning tomorrow. So, now we wait until Saturday - I won't know until Sat morning what we have that's normal.